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But that is ok, since you can feel warmth as well by people who show their love, even if they don’t really understand you. So the things that hurts the most is expectations. Once you accept that having your mom, brother and maybe 1 good friend is enough, you can settle on that, and see the relationship only as an extra. Then see who you feel comfortable discussing it with and try to make that happen one-on-one. Most people feel happy when someones dares to share, and will happily share back. Another possibility is that you are keeping a really dark secret that nobody knows about, and that you feel you can’t tell anyone. You have to tell at least one person, in order to feel that the burden of that secret is off your chest. Finally, something most people forget is that you could suffer from sleep deprivation, chemical or hormonal imbalance, which highly effects your emotional state.